When you give away parts of yourself

new journal

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 20:50:44 GMT

It was time for a change.
And time for friends only.

Comment to be added to my new journal.

short and sweet

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 06:00:01 GMT

freaking amazing.
so pumped.
Cartel medley-ed.
TEN played tons of old stuff.
NFG rocks my socks.
body kills.
voice gone.
SO happy.

bragging rights

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:53:39 GMT

Everything is good. This weekend was tons of fun! I love that I actually belong here now. Walking into Ash's Friday night and getting bombarded by "where the hell have you been?!" was nice. And the Queen of Hearts was a good costume choice. I might have looked skanky but I was the favorite skank, haha. And a kid I don't even know commented on how my legs go on forever so I mean, I'll take it. I'm really glad Jackie and I went to Jim's show at the radio station, it was pretty cool once we got past "awkward-city." Plus, I got to show Mike what College Park is all about. (and by that I mean he got to ride the drunk bus, lol.) And we beat those clowns at dodge.
The game was SO intense yesterday. We should've lost but fortunately FSU didn't capitalize on our mistakes. And we amazingly blocked a field goal that would've taken us into OT... and probably would've made me a popsicle. Charles was really fun last night, too. Buddy and I are undefeated on the table.. minus that I don't drink beer so I stay sober the whole time. But last night, oh man, my arm hurt so bad by the time someone beat me and whoever was my partner at the time. I could not wait to go home and sleep.
Jackie and I did a breast cancer walk this morning pretty early. We were quite proud at the end and it was really nice to get up and walk. Plus, the boys were quite appreciative that we came out to do it so that made us feel even better. I tried waffles with strawberry syrup, too! And I got to tell my mom how I saw my cousin quite drunk last night which pretty much made me life since she's the perfect kid. We're going to Cheesecake Factory on Tuesday, it'll be great.

People are asking to go on mine and Kelley's adventures. They don't even know what they're asking for!

Back to homework after this

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 19:13:27 GMT

I like when I accidentally post stuff that's supposed to be private and I catch it later on. People should not see inside my head when I'm in "flip out" mode, it's so not even who I actually am. But the people who matter are the people who know that, the people who know me. And I love those people more than anybody knows. No one person could ever compare to them, nobody should even try. It's kind of like when Big is talking to Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte about winning Carrie back. He knows that those three are the loves of her life and he'd be lucky just to come in at a long distance fourth. I think more people should realize that, it's quite fulfilling.

This weekend was great minus traffic on 95 resulting in it taking me three hours to get home on Friday. I got to shower without flip flops and do laundry for free which is always great. I actually got a lot of work done, too, which is also nice. MSL was not terrible on Saturday, I was just so done with it by the end. Plus, I was impatient to go see teh kids. Kelley and I did a TB date then met Ryan and Chris at Starbucks and got all excited over everything. It was good. And we actually made it to Target before it closed which is seriously a once in a life time event. Well, at least when we decide we want to go at night. Jenga was quite fun, I'd never played before and I didn't lose so it was exciting, haha. And Pictionary gone charades is a feat in itself, especially kids version. (hot sex!) Hm, yea.. so..
Went shopping with teh madre and decided I will never eat at Ruby Tuesday's again. Got to see the Ridge boys which made me very happy.. and got in trouble that I won't be back again for awhile. Did the dinner and blog combo later on, good times. And I was actually happy to be back at school once I got here. Not because I didn't want to be in PH, but because I didn't not want to be in CP. It's a good feeling.

and finally... I cannot wait for Halloween!!!!!!!
or for Friday the 13th. I mean, come on.. it's Friday the 13th, Maryland Madness, and National Hug an Emo Kid day.
what more could you want out of life?

monday night football

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 02:41:13 GMT

out of 5 classes, I have varsity soccer players in 3.
two of whom are starters.
that rocks!

Jackie and I are great at sing-a-longs to anything.

CaCie: i really feel like any asshole can get into college these days
Me: there's this kid in my women's studies class and I don't know how he does life at all
CaCie: haha yeah i know plenty like that
Me: it's kind of sad, I want to hand him some milk and cookies and be like "it's okay, you're here on an athletic scholarship"

p.s. we were civil war soldiers together.
teh Connection headquarters

Kelley: i just remember how good it feels everytime something is said that needs to be
Me: you get that "laying in the grass, hugging the world" feeling once the shaking subsides

we'll dance them all away

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 04:22:36 GMT

I'm always doing homework and having a hard time concentrating on it all. Tomorrow will be a busy day but good. I can't wait for Halloween, the costumes are amazing. I like when I watch Disney movies with two boys, one of whom knows ALL the words. I enjoy when I can do laundry uninterrupted. I also like to talk to people, a lot actually. And when random events lead to unexpected fun, and maybe again? I really like how Jay-Z decided to officially unretire, that's ridiculous. I'm so proud of the dodge boys, they're good and I like telling people how my friends are good. And I like how I get text message harassed by Matt Williams for not coming places when I just can't. It's really awesome how Law and Order is ALWAYS on TV somewhere. I love parties, people are great. New people are even better, especially when we've talked about them before because they seem like cool people and turn out to actually be cool people. Rider Strong is on Law and Order, that's wonderful! I have to go to bed so I can get up for astronomy discussion in the morning. I can't wait for Veronica Mars and Gilmore Girls to start next week. We've been in classes for a month, it's been so fast. Goodnight, loves.

it's real.

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 16:44:46 GMT

Friday
- really good lab meeting
- Jena came
- Cartel
- got the rest of my books
- awesome party
- roommate love
- great people
- pretty little emo boys
- fun conversation
- ice luge

Saturday
- teh Connection
- Olivia
- Loch Raven
- free laundry
- pictures
- AWESOME show!
- Taco Bell
- bridge
- "long lost" friends

Sunday
- teh Connection, dinner style
- enjoying my homework
- sunny and beautiful
- dodge
- more "long lost" friends

I miss the Catonsville boys and Steph!
and I'm real proud of them.

school is good

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 00:43:07 GMT

Great classes.
Fun research.
Two soccer teams.
Good parties.
Awesome new people.
New TV obsession.
Not miserable!

I can't wait for the Black Dahlia!
It's going to be SUCH a great movie.

And I've downloaded tons of oldies today.
Only because Kelley wanted them on my i-pod, lol.

"Just be glad I don't flip my hair- I'd own you."

it's a fresh start, sort of

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 04:35:52 GMT

It feels like 10 minutes but it's been 3 months.

I guess that's life, take it or leave it.
As alone as one can feel, there are always people to make it not so lonely.

"And if [I make you bawl] then my work here is done"
and thank you for that, love. haha

TG;kthx

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 20:19:17 GMT

It's not just a pretty face.
It's lyrical stories, expression.
It's relating, living.
It's passion.

teh OC

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:31:01 GMT

I feel like we weren't there long enough even though it was a week.
Wrestling, "quoting", running, etc.
Can't get enough, duhzz.
Dumsers is the best, better than Coldstone of course!
"Did you fuck her yet?" (taken COMPLETELY out of context)
I'm glad to know we all have the worst minds ever.. especially together.
Late nights that bring out different sides.
Attempting to read and it just not working because the whole room is too ADD.
Snuggle nub wake ups by teh boo.. and by boo I mean everyone.
I enjoy mini golf greatly although I came in last.
And air hockey is wonderful.
Seeing people have sex on the beach during volleyball is so gross
and incredibly fun to make comments about.
There was so much cream soda, rootbeer, and orange soda.
We had TONS of bottles for our messages,
even when we had to pull them out from behind the couch
which was not that bad to sleep on.
I got in the ocean up to my thighs and that was a feat for me.
I found that I really like when the waves push me around.
Climbing balconies and having our "own beach" was so nice.
I really love the pier, too.
Manager Steve is so dumb, I'm glad he didn't remember us.
Foreign boys are most definitely the most attractive.
We have our reasons for believing that.
We're camera crazy and want to capture everything in pixels.
Literally drove across "the bridge" for Taco Bell
(which renewed KFC mashed potatoe fixes)
and Starbucks ('cause Kelley's an addict, lol).
I'm so jealous that residents have such cheap gas!
Random guys think we'll get in their SUVs but nooo.
We just like to "holla" all the time.
Lovedddd my sweet potatoe, it made me excited.
There's so much more that I can't even explain.
Everything was so fun and there was ze-ro drama.
"We're spinning empty bottles just the five of us."
More like playing Old Maid and other games.
I'm really glad we went and I'm super happy how it all turned out.
It was a really good trip, especially with school coming.
Of course there's a huge picture blog on my myspace.
I'm so in love with life and that's all I need.

partayyyy

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 06:25:02 GMT

I enjoy free icecream 'cause I got the hook-ups.
I enjoy bridge rides and playgrounds.
And silly boys running naked in the field.
And seeing a shooting star.
And having a pirate captain.
And singing ridiculously loud to old TBS with everyone.
I enjoy sleeping so late once in awhile.
I enjoy getting things together.
And being happy with my friends.
I enjoy cards and drinking rootbeer for [insert number] seconds.
I enjoy snuggle nubs and "sex photos."
I enjoy reading.
Especially before bed.
Which is what I'm going to go do.

xoxo

hum

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 07:11:30 GMT

Six Flags was tons of fun. I'm really glad I got off for it!

Picked up Ryan for Wing Night which was fun. I'm glad he asked to come! We got the stupid waitress but whatever, hopefully that won't happen again. Brandon came so that was awesome, I miss seeing him more often. Fun times all around of course.

I'm slowly getting used to my new camera, figuring stuff out and what not. Keeping it dry at the Gunpowder today was probably a good start, heh. Took tons of pictures of Life and decided it's psychic (except not really).

I'm really glad I got to see my cousin today. It's been so long and I just feel like I miss out on so much.. I wish we lived closer so I could go see his games and stuff. He's been through so much at such a young age but he doesn't let it effect him which is amazing. He just keeps going on, enjoying life. I wish everyone could have that drive!

I've been thinking about last summer a lot recently, especially since Brandon said something about it last night. It was fun but I know things will never be like that again. I wish some relationships could still be how they are, sometimes it really upsets me that they aren't, but I know everybody changes so that's just ridiculous to think about. I'm really happy about this summer, it's been tons of fun and new adventures, it's just different and I can't help but think about it. I can't believe how much has changed in just one year but it's been a hell of a year. Last summer at this time I was so ready to go to college and be away but I really had no idea what I was in for. Again, I have no idea what's ahead since this is a completely different year, but I feel better about it. I feel more stable and I feel as if I have much more true support. I also have an internship that is going to be time consuming but good. I'm really excited for it, there's no reason not to be.

I guess sometimes it just takes the bad to bring out the good. I know what's real and I know what's loyal and for that I am grateful.

woot woot

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 17:29:25 GMT

Thumbs up for:
quasi alcoholic glass flinging haunted houses.
beach parties in the dark with fun people I don't know well.
swing sets and car rides.
Rita's having good ice flavors again.
a bunch of people singing Super Mario songs to ease the "serial killer" atmosphere.
trains from hell.
working with people who have become family.
not doing all the driving anymore.
french vanilla iced coffee (that doesn't take like coffee at all) with cinnamon hazlenut mixed in.
doing whatever whenever and being okay with that.
dancing always.
chivalry (in girl form).
reading all the time.
loving life.

Thumbs down for:
state troopers.
dentist appointments.
teh Connection not being 10 minutes down the road.
Lady in the Water.

It's always nice when the good outweighs the bad.
And that things will be set straight so false pretenses can stop being spread.

summer 2k6 going strong

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 15:20:00 GMT

I really enjoy having fun days and fun people to spend them with.
Soccer was great (of course). Swimming made my day! Kabobs are really interesting.
Piercing places blow but it will be figured out!
Jena and I saw our boss getting drunk and playing beer pong.
People flake but that's alright because of Hellogoodbye, holding tight to happiness.
Then we walk a long time the wrong way and it's okay because we take epic pictures.

Obviously that's the way to spend a Saturday.
loveee

side note

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 17:54:47 GMT

Hold the people you love close to your heart
that way they can never actually leave...

hideous car wreck

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 21:12:51 GMT

so how about going to Honeygo and seeing kids having sex on the jungle gym.
plus playing tons of soccer and absolutely loving every minute of it.

I'm glad I have good people in my life.
Definitely wouldn't trade them for anything!

Birthday stuffff

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 07:31:17 GMT

This was probably one of the most entertaining birthdays ever.
From "movies" to lollipops and Coldstone to fireworks it didn't stop.
I got so many messages and calls that I thought I was going to need a secretary
and I was loving every minute of it.
I ate at Egyptian Pizza which was amazing. Definitely going back there!
Some people don't realize how much of an impact they make but it's there
and they are wayyy appreciated. Good friends make for good times!

I love today, I want every day to feel this happy!
It's time to sleep and stop being itchy.

summer is here, duhzz

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 21:11:09 GMT

I'm so glad the rain is done.
I love sun and swimming and being ridiculous.
And being Sex and the City.

Life is good.

I've been doing some thinking

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 06:05:59 GMT

I have a lot of people in my life, some true and some conveinient.
I know who matters and who's there for show, just to have me as another number.
I'm over pretty faces and funny words.
I have meaning and that's worth effort.

seriously, the best friends

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 17:22:29 GMT

Jena and I pretty much ruled Warped Tour.
ETIDDDDD woot!
I saw everyone I wanted to
minus FATA who played earlier than
they were supposed to :-(
we goofed off and made fun of everything
Senses Fail redeemed themselves
Taco Bell was the perfect ending
complete with kids we had seen all day at Warped

Kelley and I pretty much ruled OC yesterday
"You know it's not good to let us go on our
own where people are in their underwear"
Photo shoots and Dumsers
Heartbreaking guitar players on the beach
and old couples holding hands walking along
the ghetto of Delaware hardcore exists
we saw drug deals and thought we were
going to get shot in about 10 minutes

Life pretty much rules.

Plans and names

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 05:56:35 GMT

I'm excited for this week, it's a good one.
Warped Tour, OC for a day, and outlets.

I'm excited to move away eventually.
Not that I don't love people here
but I need a new start after college.
Some place where nobody knows me
or the baggage I bring.
(Unless they're bringing baggage to go with mine.)

It's more troubling than anyone knows.
One word and it's a mind frenzy.
Time fixes all, or at least attempts to do so.
But what about when time solidifies?
Freak outs instead of "the norm".

Maybe I should get the stone, too.
(for teh Connection)

summer traditions

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 19:03:02 GMT

I enjoy life.
period.

I'm happy

Fri, 26 May 2006 20:11:55 GMT

CaCie just surprise stopped by. We're chillen tomorrow and I'm glad 'cause I love her.
Blueberry and I have already decided this summer is going to be good. Different than last but good none the less.
Robyn's stopping by in a little bit and since she's finally home it means summer's official.
I'm going to a toga party tonight, minus the toga since it's being enforced for drinking purposes. haha
Everything's settled and that makes me glad. I'm not going to be tolerating being treated badly by anyone though.
Dodgeball is probably the greatest pasttime, minus soccer. It makes everything great.
I'm wearing this shirt Kelley made me buy and I feel "nice".
My mom and I did Panera today which, of course, is amazing.
Bfallstar likes fraggles and doozers a little too much. And does a snort run.
Parties this weekend should be fun. Starting the summer off with a whole new bunch of picture folders.

I realize that I miss some people but I'll see them. Maybe not now but soon.

It's summer and I'm happy.

p.s. I'm all about always having something to read. So recommend please.

I love soccer

Sat, 20 May 2006 18:55:25 GMT

but I hate jerks.

Seriously, fuck you if you think you're going to treat me like shit just because you got your boys. I will not be verbally harassed for your entertainment, I'm not a weak, insecure person who thinks she isn't worth anything more. I'll call your shit and throw it right back in your face. I'm fucking done.